Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Journal Entry 18

Day 37
Turns out I’m the asshole.  I exploded at Brooke today.  I didn’t hit her but I was yelling really loud and calling her names.  Mom came over and slapped me across the face them went and comforted Brooke who was crying.  She cried for the next hour and a half.  Lily and Courtney kept giving me dirty looks the rest of the day.  
After dinner dad pulled me aside and had a talk with me.  I thought he was going to hit me too but he calmly said I had disappointed him.  He expected better from me since I was now the oldest son.  I tried to defend myself but dad wouldn’t let me.  He told me a story about David when I was assigned as his assistant.  Apparently, David had also disliked working with me.  I don’t remember that.  I always thought we worked really good together.  David was a born leader and I was his second in command.  It was different now.  Now I was the leader.  For this assignment, Brooke was my second in command and I had treated her like crap.  I am disappointed in myself.  How can I lead anyone if I can’t make people understand what I want to be done.  I’m gonna make it up to Brooke!  I promise!

Monday, January 9, 2017

Journal Entry 17

Day 36
There is so much to do before we leave the shelter.  Dad has been assigning everyone tasks.  I got inventory.  Seriously?  Why would you assign a fourteen year old inventory?  It wouldn’t be so bad but Brooke was assigned as my helper.  For the record, a three year old is a terrible helper!  Right away I know she can’t actually count anything so I ask her to put similar items together.  She grouped everything by color.  All blue things in one pile, green in another, red, yellow, brown, ect.  I had to redo all of it and lost a whole day of work thanks to Brooke’s help.  As usual, mom praised Brooke.  She was so impressed that Brooke color coordinated everything.  So the next day I was more specific.  I told Brooke to organize all the cans.  I thought I was giving her an easy task that she couldn’t possibly screw up.  She went and found all the cans and make a large pile of cans.  None of them were organized at all.  Food was mixed with bug spray, deodorant, and WD40.  I mean come on, you can’t even tell that WD40 doesn’t go in the same pile as soup?  David and I did inventory for years and I know that dad wouldn’t be okay with everything grouped that way so I lost another day of work and spent the next day reorganizing all the cans into more specific groups.  I asked dad if Lily could help me instead of Brooke but he said no.  Asshole!

Monday, January 2, 2017

The new year has begun

Now that the hoildays are over it looks like we will be getting back to our normal routine here. There should be two new day zero post this week. 2017 should be a big year for us here a lot of cool stuff coming down the pipeline.